Let me catch you up with a little background on the trappings of my brain…pretty complex I’ll add… hopefully, some of you can relate to MY curiosities and conundrums and of course my purpose.
So now that you know I moved to Vail, Colorado, let me tell you a little bit about the reasons why I’m here today writing to all of you.

MY CONUNDRUMS

Soooo….being an Interior Designer for 22 years, which was not a good career to go through in the middle of a recession I might add…to currently being back in retail for the last 7 years, work was another of my biggest conundrums. Even though I can do anything from designing a custom home to planning a spectacular party to organizing a pantry with the creative flair or even selling snow to Eskimos for that matter, I’ve been looking for that career move that would have me passionate again, every day…day in & day out. Luckily for me, I was blessed with the gift of gab, the many traits in design, like balance, harmony, color perception and a great eye and did I mention I could sell anything to anybody. Yep, that’s me. So my curiosities on my future were just another conundrum. Enter KEMO SABE in Vail, Colorado, of all places, and I’m in the midst of the biggest adventure and challenge of my life.

MY CURIOSITIES 

The reason I decided to write a blog is the curiosities have come in as frequent as the conundrums in my life. Why, who, what, when and my favorite, really??? No, REALLY??? These words seem to haunt me as I’m always trying to learn and understand something.

It started waaaaay back when I was in the 5th grade in my Catholic school, St. Viators. My teacher, Sister Verena, a nun, habit and all, would teach us about the Big Bang Theory in 3rd period then back it up with God making the world in 6 days then he rested on the 7th-day argument. At the young, ripe age of 9, I felt like my head would explode. My hand was constantly up to ask questions trying to understand how we all ended up here in this great big world. When her two theories clashed like oil & water, she would sssshhh me and tell me, “Anita, you must have faith”… UGHHHHHH another word to this day drives me bonkers!!!! Or my favorite, if Cain & Abel were the sons of Adam & Eve who the heck started the cross breeding to start evolution?? That of course was another doozie nobody to this day has been able to answer for me. Needless to say, I have no patience for organized religion and consider myself a spiritual being that is in awe of the world we live in and only have faith that hopefully, tomorrow will come. That’s really all my brain can handle as there’s just way to much shit in there too over analyze already. Don’t get me wrong, I very much believe in a higher power and see miracles all around me every day. Just this past fall I sat in a full-blown rainstorm…watching clouds move and jockey for space in the vast gray sky…. Yea I’m a bit of a dork when it comes to things like clouds and rainbows and unexplainable phenomenon like penguin migration and of course, the Fibonacci Sequence, something my 23-year-old Einstein loving kid taught me…still hoping to see a unicorn one day. Who knows??!!

I’m a huge researcher and when I learn something or am exposed to something that interests me I will go to the ends of the earth to find out more and suck up every bit of data I can on the subject. Once I spent 4 plus hours watching every video and reading every article Amy Schumer had anything to do with… Yea I’m a huge Amy Schumer fan, keep an eye on her on her 2 Comedy Central roasts early in her career she was a part of, you won’t be disappointed…you’re welcome.

My curiosities can be strange too, have you ever heard of the scientist Masaru Emoto? He was a Japanese author, researcher, and entrepreneur, who claimed that human consciousness has an effect on the molecular structure of water. WATER…. The one life source we cannot live without and that our bodies are made up of. Emoto’s findings evolved over the years, and in his early work, he did many tests that showed proof that his beliefs that water could react to positive thoughts and words were, in fact, true. Also, that polluted water could be cleaned through prayer and positive visualization. Mind blowing…. like most phenomenon many people tried to debunk Emoto but I’m still perplexed and wonder all the time how factual his findings were. Watch the video below from the movie I learned about him from. Mind blowing.

I mean really?? Wtf?? Tell me you aren’t curious about that discovery!!!!??? I mean really, this kinda shit baffles my mind. The pyramids, Easter Island, the Bermuda Triangle and even stupid ones like when are they going to create a charger that doesn’t break for your iPhone, or when are they going to come out with blow-dryers and curling irons that are wireless….I mean come on these curiosities haunt me every day all day as well….just to name a few. Don’t even get me started on Area 51 and black holes… Curiosities in my brain are as relevant and a part of me as the Conundrums!

MY PURPOSE

To keep myself sane a lot of my brain space goes to my kids… my kids are my life..(…they really are, they don’t even know it), but in many ways at the same time, I let them breathe. I let them have space, a voice and sometimes space & opinions create a divide, but other times I can’t get enough of them.

My first born is Toni, and It’s not Antoinette, not Tonette JUST Toni. My complex, smart, hippy-chick. Toni was born to me at the tender age of 19…quite the kid myself actually…but I’ll tell you, now, at 51, I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world. Yes, we grew up together, yes, at times she mothers ME but at the end of the day we have a closeness that can’t be explained, and it’s because of having her at 19. Toni mothered Kristina and her two younger siblings and still does to this day, she’s always been a “fix it” girl…the big sister… she fixes or tries to fix everything around her. One might call it controlling, but at the end of it all, it comes from a loving place. Toni has a tenacity that is to be admired, I watch in awe of her will & determination at times. Shortly after that, 16 months to be exact Kristina was born…her baby sister, that went under her wing and still looks up to her to this day. Kristina, my tender child, has a heart 3 sizes too big for her body. Kristina being more the extrovert of her and Toni reminds me of myself…carefree, when she allows herself to be. Then comes outspoken, witty, wisdom beyond her years, Jacqueline Taylor. My wanderlust child. At 23 this child says things and reacts to situations like not only a full-blown adult but one that has been in years of therapy and it astounds me every time she opens her mouth. Kristina and Jacki question who they feel is more like me…. both of their personalities very outgoing with Jacki having that other piece of the pie, which is… street smarts. Kristina & I never have quite completely mastered that trait. Kristina has a memory like an elephant and has made certain things in her life, like school, something that can be her nemesis, unfortunately from her need for perfection. She is so hard on herself it saddens me at times, but I know her greatness will flourish one day because of her own inner drive. The perfectionist in me has seeped into each of them and like I’ve always said about myself, can be our best trait and our worst trait all rolled into one. Then there is what we call, or I should say I call, The Prince, David Michael Morgan, named after his father but goes by David, not Dave. This child is smarter & wittier than a whip and again wise like his sister and has the same zest for life and curiosities as his mother. Einstein is his mentor and Carl Sagen his pal. He loves classical music as much as rap music, can draw and makes sports his bitch when he puts his mind to being the best. David is what I call, well rounded. Jacki and David have the comedic timing of their father, one of the best characteristics they could’ve ever picked up. Btw, Toni and Kristina have glimmers of it too from their dad Todd, (for some reason I’ve always liked funny men… witty, charming…. kinda like my dad, Fml). Our life together is quite funny because of my choice in men, and I wouldn’t change that for anything in the world. My kids are a riot and being around them has made me a bit funnier too… Go figure. I could go on and on about my children, but I’m sure I’ll have plenty of time to do that on future blogs. Stay tuned. Just wait till I tell you about my David being raised by 3 sisters a mom, a great-grandmother, grandmother, aunt, girlfriends….wow. Poor kid.

So that’s a little about me, and some of the few curiosities & conundrums I have whizzing around in my head on a constant basis. I didn’t even touch on being a foodie, my love affair with music and photography or that I’m in love with love ❤️ … I always look for the best in people and have had my heart broken quite a few times because of it…. but…. you will soon learn more as I hope you keep buzzing along with me as I attempt to carve out my own niche in this crazy blogosphere….. Hope to hear from a few of you in the comments section & if any of you happen to be dealing with the same curiosities….tell me some of your strange or unusual curiosities I’d love to hear them!!! Or…. conundrums for that matter….what troubles you now and leaves you baffled?? Please, pretty please, share your stories….I can’t wait, let’s compare….who knows, right?!!?! Peace ✌🏼

Anita~