3-20-17 ♥

2-12-17 1:10am

New beginnings…

Can you tell I’m in a colorful mood and sooo ready for spring!!??? Today is March 20th…the first day of spring….even though cloudy out, I can feel an internal change. down in the depths of my belly, I feel it!! Color My World, from the band Chicago, comes to mind with the beautiful lyrics for this up and coming time….Like with every season, at the end of the previous one, we are ready to take the leap and move on… and this season has not been any different. WHAT A DAMN LONG WINTER IT HAS BEEN, (to me anyways, realized I am for SURE not a winter girl)! With daylight saving, and Springing Ahead it is time for a change…new beginnings. This morning I woke up with a purpose…got a few things in order, (paid bills–yuck) and am now looking towards the future. The last couple of weeks have been HARD!! From a horrible last-minute winter cold that lingered FOREVER (I am not a good sick person) to an old flame from years past materializing outta flipping nowhere, professing his love and all the emotions that come with that, (talk about emotional rollercoaster) …Thank god for SHAMELESS from Showtime…. it has made my life’s trials and tribulations feel normal!! With all the thoughts of what lies ahead, needless to say, I have had the invisibility cloak around me, as I call it, sleeping too little, and sleeping too much with thoughts and decisions zooming around in my head clouding my every thought. Probably a conundrum I will continue to live with for life…the damn dark hole. You ask for what?? What can this 51-year-old, that lives alone, with 4 grown kids… have to contemplate, vacillate over and fret about well……. Let me tell you…I have had to keep it under wraps for almost a month as timing was important to let the cat out of the bag ’cause that is what life’s all about, right???? TIMING But… 

BOOM…..

“Just when you think you know all love is… along come grandchildren”

The beginning of another new chapter…

2-12-17 

OH, MY GOD!!!! OMG-OMG-OMG-OMFG-OMGGGGGGGOD!!!

I cannot contain myself…..I feel like every fiber of my being is filled with electricity. My brain is on overdrive and thoughts and future moments are swirling around in my brain at RAPID speed. I want to shout from the hugest and highest of the Colorado mountains and call everyone I know and post a thousand posts…and a  million other things…..I’M GOING TO BE A GRANDMA!!!!!! On the eve of the night after I posted how I’m so eagerly and anxiously awaiting this milestone in my life and it’s happening. And….to none other than my baby boy. David & Chelsea—-a rock solid foundation of love and admiration for each other, the best formula for a baby to come into this great big world!!! ♥♥♥♥ I can only hope in my future to have the relationship they have and have worked on and are still learning from each other every day. With a due date of August 28th and about 12 weeks along I saw actual pictures of the ultrasound.  It’s not  April Fools or a joke to see my reaction….it’s actually happening. Will it be a girl or a boy? David is 50/50 with Chelsea at a strong 60/40 with the girl leading the way. It’s been decided that we will all wait till that balmy day in August to find out.

Ground Rules….

So as my mind was and is going 100 mph I’ve already laid some ground rules. I must be invited to the baby’s first Disneyland encounter. I pictured myself holding hands with him/her walking through Hogwarts too…. just a tidbit of the mini moments being framed in my mind at a constant high pace. I’ve alerted the duo that August is a slower month in Vail and how I’ll HAVE TO take a week off to come help with the baby. Also, what will baby Morgan call me?? Grandma…naaa to boring…Nana maybe…decisions–decisions!!!

Still reeling… 

3-20-17

So many thoughts are still swirling around in my head and it was complete torture having to keep it under wraps. My daughter Kristina and I were chomping at the proverbial bit to tell the WORLD, but the happy couple had to wait for the right moment to tell each of his sisters, my mom, who is going to be a great-grandma, his dad, his uncle and aunt, her brothers and even their two jobs as they had been keeping the biggest secret ever and now it was time to grace everyone with the exciting news. 

I’m constantly thinking about things like baby showers….his/her first step, first words, holding the precious bundle and having that ethereal feeling of being a grandma. Not too long ago my son sent me some text messages that after years of competing about who loved each other more…he finally conceded. Looking back at these texts now always will make me smile, so… this baby  (and the others to come) will be almost like another chance to love a precious baby with all the wisdom of the things I’ve done wrong as a mother. A time to embrace being the best grandma I could ever be. I’ve learned so much about what not to do. Maybe it will be something I will strive for now for the rest of my life… to have the pleasure and joy of watching my four fumble through life and make their own mistakes but also be by their sides to help and nurture not just them but their babies. BRING IT ON!!!

Patti Hudson, my friend, has taught me so much about being a grandma and she doesn’t even know it… putting family first is definitely one of them and boy-oh-boy does she love her grandkids… Can’t wait to gain more wisdom from her along the way!

What was it like when you just got the news of being grandma…what changes…what should I do…read, learn… so many wonderful things to think about??!! Let me know in the comments section!!  Thanks for following-reading-and sharing in my life with me!!